Do You Need A Joy Reminder?

Week 14 of pregnancy has been up and down for me. Even as I am typing out this post, I am laying in bed feeling a little green in the gills. The last 48 hours have been tough ones. One of my sons lives in Texas and I got some news that made the momma bear come out of me. I am sure that has not helped the nausea I have been feeling.

It’s also Easter week so I am forcefully and gratefully reminded that Christ has risen for a reason!

I am glad to have this reminder and knowledge in my heart because during a time that could be easy to forget some good…

I am seeking to see the JOY

Wednesday as I was driving into the office, surrounded by traffic and feeling extra thoughtful. In my house it is oftentimes very difficult to find moments of true quiet and stillness so the car is that place for me many days.

I was once again thinking to myself out loud: 5 kids

As soon as I put that thought out of my mind into the world I immediately thought about how Baker is my saving grace. You know what happened?

I smiled.

I then began thinking about each of the kids and what they are to me.

I smiled more.

I then in that moment realized that sometimes even in the most overwhelming moments and thoughts there is blessing in reminding ourselves of joy.


So I want to challenge you to do the same thing. Run through the people closest to you and see what they bring in your life and write their name and what they bring on paper or in your phone. Text them or call them to share what they do in your heart.

Here was my list of what my children bring in my life: I did them in order of oldest to youngest because as I wrote them out I realize how much purpose and meaning they give my lifelong journey.

Tayler my oldest son: he is my Reassurance
* He tries my nerves in so many ways, but then from time to time he shows me his selfless heart and sincere smile and it helps me know he is going to grow up just fine!

Tayler my oldest
Tayler my oldest

Analesia my one and only daughter: she is my Pretty Spectacular Kid
* Anas is very smart, has a heart of solid gold, smiles and lights a room, has traits of a leader and can move any mountain in her way. She reminds me that glass ceilings can be broken and she is going to be one of the gals to do it!

My spectacular kid Anas
My spectacular kid Anas

Hayden my middle Son: he is my Hayden Sunshine
* His smile has a way to make the whole world shine, he was made special and is one of the sweetest kids I have ever known in my whole life. He doesn’t talk a whole lot about his feelings, but he is the ox of all my children. He has overcome so much and yet it doesn’t make his heart jagged one bit. He is a true love in and out!


Baker is my two year old tot: he is my Saving Grace
*Baker entered my life in a season that I needed some slowing down, perspective, and softening of the walls I had built. He has totally converted my heart and made me quite honestly a mushy pile of mommy! He has taught me to love “kisees”, snuggle time, and been the reminder of what priorities are important for my life.

Baker the famous saving grace!
Baker the famous saving grace!

Gibson James is the 14 week old baby in my belly: he is my Peace
* He is reminding my restless and insecure heart to find peace in the small details and milestones. He is already teaching me to slow down even more and to listen to what my body tells me to do. His heartbeat is the most beautiful peaceful sound I ever put through my headphones. My day can be going stressFULL and I hear his heart and immediate peace.

Our special bundle of joy! Official  pic still months away  lol
Our special bundle of joy! Official pic still months away lol

So during this season of second trimester I will choose JOY.

Are you a good collector of memories? I am not so much, but if this post has inspired you to become more joyful in recording memories and moments I did want to give you a link to a great resource. Emily Ley one of my favorite planner makers, bloggers, and believers has a pretty great memory book made to collect the kiddo memories. I do not make anything by you using this link, but think it is a great resource!

I hope to see you next Sunday on the blog, I would love for you to share what gifts your kids bring in your life. Make sure to post in the comments.


Finding yourself only to lose yourself.

On my way to church this morning I had quite a few things flowing through my mind. My heart was rustling, which I knew could only mean one thing.


It’s amazing what happens when you declare out loud and on more than one occasion that you made a deal with God; from January 1 through December 31st of this year I would open my mind, heart, eyes and ears to what He calls me to do. Caveat being: I would NOT say no,and instead would just go with it.

EEEEKKK! It is scary at times y’all!

I did only what I know how to do which was let it out… so I said the words that were in my mind.

“What if in the process of of finally being able to find myself I lose myself?”

I have been a mom since the age of 16 years old,so this last year has been really about trying to learn what I like, love and want to learn more about. I have also made it a point to push some barriers even if fear wants to peek it’s little head in.

This year has been very rewarding and quite the adventure!

“You must grow in your faith no matter what because your prayers may not be answered in this life but the next.” That is what someone in my Sunday class shared with me several weeks ago and it has stayed in my heart. It was a light bulb moment for me because I tend to mentally prepare myself for tough things ahead, but like anyone else I get down and deflated when according to my time it does not get better quickly.

I go astray from the point. HONE BACK IN.

After class this Sunday, I went to church service like I usually do. USUALLY DO except I have not gone in there for the last few weeks. Not because I didn’t want to but rather because I felt as if I have lost some momentum in my faith. It’s funny how you know that no one else can see this vulnerable blind spot but HE can. So I tried hiding my face and my presence from Him in His house. Shame on me!

Cause you can run, but you can’t hide…lol!

I walked in- I heard the music, I sang to the music but then I STOPPED to write something down.

The name of a blog post. Have you know I have NOT posted since several months ago.

I wrote ” When you lose yourself you find yourself”… I wanted to write “When you FIND yourself you LOSE yourself”

Instead of going with what I felt my heart speak I write down what my fingers wanted.

Music went on about three more songs, and then we all sat down.

Pastor Dan at my church home, Pureheart went up to the stage like he does every Sunday and discussed the second half of the series they have been doing ” For the Sake of Others”.

I opened my journal, prepared to write whatever notes and takeaways I was going to learn today and then BAM!



He mentioned that John Maxwell had spoken at the Global Leadership conference and a phrase had stuck out to him…

” We have two great tasks in life: To find ourselves and then to lose ourselves.”

Here is a picture just so you can see for yourself.

TALK ABOUT” I can see you Sam!!!!!

I paid attention the remainder of the sermon and took as many notes as I could.

My biggest takeaways I want to share with you are this:

-Be willing to sacrifice your fears so that you can give life to others through leading more Christ-like.

-Remember that there are people all around you… you and your faith know the cure!

-You were given the gift of passion, power and purpose!

-Remember these things because you weren’t just saved, you were saved for something!

So the prayer for this week for me and I hope you too will be:

“Dear Lord, thank you for getting my attention in a way that only you know I need. Thank you for allowing me to be a little scared and I give you even more thanks for reminding me that you are standing right next to me. Thank you for holding my face above the waves and reminding me to only keep my eyes focused on you. Please give me strength to trust in your goodness when the thought of getting further away from “myself” scared the turd out of me, but each day I get weary remind me you are just trying to get me to lay my flesh to the side so that I can find myself spiritually. Allow me to continue being transparent, humbled in your word, and remove my pride and stubborn ways. Please humble and calm my restless heart. Please remove the desire to be in control and allow me understanding that this life you have paved out for me has a purpose only you know and I am simply meant to follow.

In your name I pray this for not only me but my JWIF Sisters-Amen!”

If you pray this prayer please make sure to take a photo and share so I can see how contagious prayer is #JWIFSister

Always attend prepared!
Love y’all!