Let’s Talk #15weekspregnant

Okay it happened!

Tears
Stretching
Headaches
Clothes NOT fitting
Confusion
Insecurities

All in one week. This week’s post was a tough one for me to write out because quite honestly a lot has taken place in seven days on the “real life” side, and I had to remind myself to use this post as a way to store a memory to look back on a preferably the good kind from pregnancy.

So as a way to compromise to myself I decided to keep this post a brief one.

So what did I learn from each of the areas I mentioned above:

Tears– those are okay to have and while others may not understand they are mine nevertheless. So I will embrace them and find gratitude that God gifted me with the ability to feel deeply. Especially in a world that tries to teach us to run on the surface.

Stretching- having good work pals to remind me to breathe and not stress out over the inevitable expanding waistline and that this feeling is a good sign that the baby is growing.

Headaches- to take tylenol, water, and REST. I don’t need to be a superhero.

Clothes NOT fitting– start buying some clothes that have a maternity tag. Even though I may not feel ready to buy them in store, I can still do it online. Baby steps win the race.

Confusion- I learned I don’t have the answer to this one right now and honestly I don’t care.

Insecurities– everyone has them, so I am not the only one on the planet to experience this. I realized I cannot rely on anyone to put my heart and mind at ease instead it needs to be me. I am going to need someone greater than me to help me in this area. Further sign I need to go back to my church home.

…as I type this post out I also realize one thing. I miss my family, my dad about now would have grabbed me a scoop of vanilla ice cream and sat with me to remind me everything will be okay. He would remind me that my flaws are all the more reason to love me. He would listen— he is a dang good listener how I need to be heard.

I am heading to California for a few days and hope that I will be able to take a small moment to celebrate the 16 week milestone with fresh air and maybe a sweet treat.

But for now, this is what I got and I am okay with that.

-Sam

There is a time… Let the spirit lead

Mood today: Calm heart, open mind. 

Inspirational Tune: Melody tunes in church 

  One of my church musicians spoke today and as she began speaking I sat down and knew I would need to take note for the JWIF blog…
  
    I have such a bitter sweet relationship about this blog. 

Not because it makes money (it doesn’t) 

Not because it takes time to post (it’s part of owning a Blog) 

      …but rather because it’s a safe home for me to write words of what I carry in my heart. 

    At the end of 2015 I had a conversation with God. It went something like this:

“Okay God, I will give you January 1-December 31st of 2016 to do with me what you want. I will have zero hesitation and will just do it.

     I will do your will for me.

*While I know we can’t tell God how to do things, I do believe He knows that we each come to Him in our own way and pace.

Today in church confirmation I am on the right path took place!
   

Our music gal said “there is a time… Let the spirit lead.”

   I can honestly say I am doing that. It feels great to know that instead of wasting time with reservations I am just doing what I feel called to do.

   Through the “leading” process I reflect and see how much the Lord is doing for me. 

   So far on this “2016 compromise” project I see the Lord has extended me:

  • Grace
  • Comfort in knowing forgiveness is real
  • Opportunities
  • Community
  • Gratitude
  • Stillness
  • Promises

    Not bad for May 2016.


  

The stories and lessons I’m learning along the way are part of my life. 

   This is the year of time… 

Are we ready to experience the greatness God is going to fill us with?
Let’s enjoy the ride!

-Sam