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Okay it happened!

Clothes NOT fitting

All in one week. This week’s post was a tough one for me to write out because quite honestly a lot has taken place in seven days on the “real life” side, and I had to remind myself to use this post as a way to store a memory to look back on a preferably the good kind from pregnancy.

So as a way to compromise to myself I decided to keep this post a brief one.

So what did I learn from each of the areas I mentioned above:

Tears– those are okay to have and while others may not understand they are mine nevertheless. So I will embrace them and find gratitude that God gifted me with the ability to feel deeply. Especially in a world that tries to teach us to run on the surface.

Stretching- having good work pals to remind me to breathe and not stress out over the inevitable expanding waistline and that this feeling is a good sign that the baby is growing.

Headaches- to take tylenol, water, and REST. I don’t need to be a superhero.

Clothes NOT fitting– start buying some clothes that have a maternity tag. Even though I may not feel ready to buy them in store, I can still do it online. Baby steps win the race.

Confusion- I learned I don’t have the answer to this one right now and honestly I don’t care.

Insecurities– everyone has them, so I am not the only one on the planet to experience this. I realized I cannot rely on anyone to put my heart and mind at ease instead it needs to be me. I am going to need someone greater than me to help me in this area. Further sign I need to go back to my church home.

…as I type this post out I also realize one thing. I miss my family, my dad about now would have grabbed me a scoop of vanilla ice cream and sat with me to remind me everything will be okay. He would remind me that my flaws are all the more reason to love me. He would listen— he is a dang good listener how I need to be heard.

I am heading to California for a few days and hope that I will be able to take a small moment to celebrate the 16 week milestone with fresh air and maybe a sweet treat.

But for now, this is what I got and I am okay with that.


Do You Need A Joy Reminder?

Week 14 of pregnancy has been up and down for me. Even as I am typing out this post, I am laying in bed feeling a little green in the gills. The last 48 hours have been tough ones. One of my sons lives in Texas and I got some news that made the momma bear come out of me. I am sure that has not helped the nausea I have been feeling.

It’s also Easter week so I am forcefully and gratefully reminded that Christ has risen for a reason!

I am glad to have this reminder and knowledge in my heart because during a time that could be easy to forget some good…

I am seeking to see the JOY

Wednesday as I was driving into the office, surrounded by traffic and feeling extra thoughtful. In my house it is oftentimes very difficult to find moments of true quiet and stillness so the car is that place for me many days.

I was once again thinking to myself out loud: 5 kids

As soon as I put that thought out of my mind into the world I immediately thought about how Baker is my saving grace. You know what happened?

I smiled.

I then began thinking about each of the kids and what they are to me.

I smiled more.

I then in that moment realized that sometimes even in the most overwhelming moments and thoughts there is blessing in reminding ourselves of joy.


So I want to challenge you to do the same thing. Run through the people closest to you and see what they bring in your life and write their name and what they bring on paper or in your phone. Text them or call them to share what they do in your heart.

Here was my list of what my children bring in my life: I did them in order of oldest to youngest because as I wrote them out I realize how much purpose and meaning they give my lifelong journey.

Tayler my oldest son: he is my Reassurance
* He tries my nerves in so many ways, but then from time to time he shows me his selfless heart and sincere smile and it helps me know he is going to grow up just fine!

Tayler my oldest
Tayler my oldest

Analesia my one and only daughter: she is my Pretty Spectacular Kid
* Anas is very smart, has a heart of solid gold, smiles and lights a room, has traits of a leader and can move any mountain in her way. She reminds me that glass ceilings can be broken and she is going to be one of the gals to do it!

My spectacular kid Anas
My spectacular kid Anas

Hayden my middle Son: he is my Hayden Sunshine
* His smile has a way to make the whole world shine, he was made special and is one of the sweetest kids I have ever known in my whole life. He doesn’t talk a whole lot about his feelings, but he is the ox of all my children. He has overcome so much and yet it doesn’t make his heart jagged one bit. He is a true love in and out!


Baker is my two year old tot: he is my Saving Grace
*Baker entered my life in a season that I needed some slowing down, perspective, and softening of the walls I had built. He has totally converted my heart and made me quite honestly a mushy pile of mommy! He has taught me to love “kisees”, snuggle time, and been the reminder of what priorities are important for my life.

Baker the famous saving grace!
Baker the famous saving grace!

Gibson James is the 14 week old baby in my belly: he is my Peace
* He is reminding my restless and insecure heart to find peace in the small details and milestones. He is already teaching me to slow down even more and to listen to what my body tells me to do. His heartbeat is the most beautiful peaceful sound I ever put through my headphones. My day can be going stressFULL and I hear his heart and immediate peace.

Our special bundle of joy! Official  pic still months away  lol
Our special bundle of joy! Official pic still months away lol

So during this season of second trimester I will choose JOY.

Are you a good collector of memories? I am not so much, but if this post has inspired you to become more joyful in recording memories and moments I did want to give you a link to a great resource. Emily Ley one of my favorite planner makers, bloggers, and believers has a pretty great memory book made to collect the kiddo memories. I do not make anything by you using this link, but think it is a great resource!

I hope to see you next Sunday on the blog, I would love for you to share what gifts your kids bring in your life. Make sure to post in the comments.